Friday, June 26, 2015

I can feel it

I've been so up and down lately it's hard to know whether a feeling will last for more than a moment. Lately all I can do is act as a vessel through which these emotions flow through- try not to freak out and just enjoy it. That's meant crying a lot at uni, wiping away the tears, reapplying makeup and then getting on with the job. Talking about my feelings with good friends, no matter how irrational and strange they might seem has really helped me a lot. My friends have been unbelievably patient and supportive throughout the last couple of months and I feel truly blessed. I didn't have the same support network when I went through high school, then again I never quite felt like this in high school. I chased boys but never was my love reciprocated. In many ways I was a late bloomer, although now I know that not to be true. I mentioned a few weeks ago I thought I wanted time alone and to grow but it turns out all I really wanted was friendship.

1- Naomi Campbell, 2- Angelina Jolie. 3- Larissa Hofmann at Fausto Puglisi Spring 2015 Backstage, 4- Ali Michael shot by Petra Collins, styled by Alexandra Horton, 5- A special MEAT by Nicolas Coulomb by Georgia Pendlebury & Florence T├ętier. 7 & 10- Kate Bogucharskaia at Andrew Gn Spring 2014 PFW, 9- Baby It's You lookbook by Shop Tunnel Vision. 11- unknown via. 12- via, 14.
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5 comments:

  1. i know what it's like to go through a rough patch--just stay strong! you're so lucky you have such supportive friends(: it's kind of weird, but your post is comforting in a way.

    hope life starts looking better soon

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    1. Thank you so much Kuo- I felt this post was really self-serving and felt a little bad for it but your lovely comment stopped that :)

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  2. i used to think i was a late bloomer too, but we aren't. imagine if we had been this far along back in high school. people wouldn't have been ready for it, it would have been uncomfortable for everyone. not late, perfectly on time ~

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    1. I often think about what my life would be like if I had peaked in high school and the rest of my life was just a slow, drawn out train wreck- but I think your perspective on this whole situation is on point :)

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